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Living nightmare…

So Saturday night I was almost killed.. my coworker when nuts and told me he was gunna fix his problem… “I’m homicidal and your suicidal so I’ll just …” I can’t get his voice out of my head.. I hear him say that to me over and over… It’s driving me insane.. I missed Monday because my mother is insecure because she almost lost me and plus the fact that I’ve been deep in depression after been told this and still hearing his voice… I want to scream and do anything to wake up from this living nightmare.. I hate him now.. He is my living nightmare and I dont believe he understands that… I don’t want to even say his name because it makes me sick.. ever time someone says it I get a sharp pain in my back.. and my spin than hurts… I’m scared to death and I believe him telling me and letting me live is worse than being killed because now he haunts my every thought…

See this girl.. no matter how hard I try not to love her.. I can’t help it. I know I fucked up big time but she makes my days brighter and happier.. I see her smile and I smile for no reason… She is my angel on this terrible earth. I just hopes she realizes how much she really means to me..

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